Sunday, March 23, 2008

Stressed much?

9 dpo/EPU and I am clearly feeling the anxiety. The last 2 nights I have had the most horror filled dreams - the first night I was being smothered by evil demons and couldn't breathe or get free or wake up. Last night was a little better, but I was a spy of some sort (that part was sort of cool); except there was much shooting and my sister was used as a decoy and I knew it was fake so said for them to shoot her and then vomited everywhere from having to make such a call and what if it had not been fake etc... Charming eh? I then was showing a home video to a lecture theatre of important people and it began showing me as a fat ugly child - totally humiliating... Clearly I am anxious. Its really only the last day or so I have been consciously aware of that anxiety beginning to make itself at home. I do not feel the slightest iota positive or hopeful. I just want it over now which is a bit horrible to say I suppose.

Next cycles I want assisted hatching. Aside from that, I have no idea what to do to get a better result :( Only a few days to go...

6 comments:

The Town Criers said...

Oh my G-d--what horrible dreams. Sending so many good thoughts for the end of the wait.

La La said...

Yikes, what yucky dreams! Hope those don't continue. As for the 2ww, I *know* how rough it is - hang in there hun.

Bec said...

You know I'm thinking about you all the time hon.

judy said...

Thinking of you.
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Kirsten said...

I'm counting them down, though probably not with the same consciousness as you! Keeping my fingers crossed though.

Anonymous said...

Sorry for the bad dreams! I hate anxiety dreams. Hang in there and breathe. Easier said than done, i know...but try it: In...2...3...4...Out...2...3...4...blah, blah, blah.