Sunday, March 23, 2008

Stressed much?

9 dpo/EPU and I am clearly feeling the anxiety. The last 2 nights I have had the most horror filled dreams - the first night I was being smothered by evil demons and couldn't breathe or get free or wake up. Last night was a little better, but I was a spy of some sort (that part was sort of cool); except there was much shooting and my sister was used as a decoy and I knew it was fake so said for them to shoot her and then vomited everywhere from having to make such a call and what if it had not been fake etc... Charming eh? I then was showing a home video to a lecture theatre of important people and it began showing me as a fat ugly child - totally humiliating... Clearly I am anxious. Its really only the last day or so I have been consciously aware of that anxiety beginning to make itself at home. I do not feel the slightest iota positive or hopeful. I just want it over now which is a bit horrible to say I suppose.

Next cycles I want assisted hatching. Aside from that, I have no idea what to do to get a better result :( Only a few days to go...

6 comments:

The Town Criers said...

Oh my G-d--what horrible dreams. Sending so many good thoughts for the end of the wait.

La La said...

Yikes, what yucky dreams! Hope those don't continue. As for the 2ww, I *know* how rough it is - hang in there hun.

Bec said...

You know I'm thinking about you all the time hon.

judy said...

Thinking of you.
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Kirsten said...

I'm counting them down, though probably not with the same consciousness as you! Keeping my fingers crossed though.

Isn't it pretty to think so said...

Sorry for the bad dreams! I hate anxiety dreams. Hang in there and breathe. Easier said than done, i know...but try it: In...2...3...4...Out...2...3...4...blah, blah, blah.